19th of May to the 26th of May

Somehow this month is just racing by with lightning speed. I can barely make out what happened and when. We did our yearly walk with friends and I got blisters that I slowly get over. Other than that it was fantastic. This week I played single dad, as my wife was out on a business trip. That was good fun too. Routines are important my dear parents out there. I got deeper into House of Leaves and it is slowly starting to get good (it’s a horror book that features an Inception-like narrative about a house that is bigger on the inside than on the outside). At work, we did some clean-up and I extended that to our house too. Good times!

19th of May: “Your favorite book from childhood”

There were so many. As a small child, I memorized every bird in a bird book with my Grandma. Later on, I dove into Enid Blyton and loved it. There is this tome of a book in my bookshelf with the whole Adventure-Series. Kids that go on adventures and solve mysteries. To be honest I don’t remember too much, just the fun I had reading this with a flashlight under my covers or during the day. This massive book wheighing heavily with adventures and stories and giving me an escape into worlds I have never seen or heard before. I can’t wait to read this to my daughter or have her read it later on. So fantastic. Enid you are missed but you will never be forgotten!

20th of May: “A prized possession now lost”

Easy. My Super Nintendo. I remember the day I got this for Christmas as if it was yesterday. The countless mornings that I snuck out of my bad made coffee and breakfast for my family just to sit in front of the TV and game away until they all wake up. Weekends at my grandmas playing Super Mario World (sometimes even together with her), then Mortal Kombat with friends way too young to look at that gore but we laughed and later on every RPG I could get my hands on or rent out from the video store. To this day I play some of the Super Nintendo games and they do hold up. However the Super Nintendo found it’s way to my young Cousin where I saw it in my early twenties the last time. Maybe it’s not even lost, but it will for sure never be forgotten. It started a life time of gaming love like books this opened up a world that is just ever expanding.

21st of May: “Moonglade”

The reflection of the moon on a body of water. In the early 90s we had really warm summers with a lot of rain. So much rain, that sometimes all the roads where flooded with soil and then that smell of warm summer rain hung in the air for days. The nights where so dark in the ore mountains and street lights sparse that you could see the moon and stars almost every night. There is an outdoor swimming pool basically in the middle of the woods with water that is almost always too cold for some 16 to 18 Degrees. Then at nights in those woods the moon throws its Moonglade into the water and I was dreaming of gliding across that Moonglade and up into the sky. Just to explore the world like Spiderman and his friends in the Cartoon of the same name, only they were not moongliding as far as I remember.

22nd of May: “A person place or thing described without adjectives”

Born in the eighties. His twenties he lived in China. Jackie Chan brought him there. He was often lost in his head or books when he was in school. Someone enjoying a room full of people. Making people laugh more than a hobby. Now passing things on to a little copy of him.

23rd of May: “What would you like to dream tonight?”

Flight, it is always flight, isn’t it? I love some dreams about flying. I had to learn it in dreams and enjoy when it happens. I soar through the sky. Sometimes through cables and wires and end up high in the clouds or hovering above buildings. It’s so much fun. Even more so when other people follow my example. Sometimes and I hope this happens tonight other people just look in awe how I stand there in the air. Just hovering and smiling. Those are good dreams. Bad dreams are rare. The greatest dreams are the ones that I fly in. Recently I am able to dream very vividly. Now if I can just force flight into them…

24th of May: “What did you dream last night?”

Not flight. I mentioned that recently I dream really vividly and I can also recall my dreams fairly well. Last night I was in some fields, probably leveling up. But I was gathering things. Like herbs and trinkets. I believe this is my recent consumption of old school RPGs. Fun times. I walk around accept quests from people and when I turn around I am somewhere else and fight some small monsters. Then other people join my party and walk with me through brightly colored landscapes. Locations change with turns and sometimes mid-sentence. I am here, then I am there and always ticking imaginary boxes off.

25th of May: “What comes before the sentence … meanwhile an asteroid was headed straight to Earth.”

An old couple holding hands walking through a European city. Some kids on a playground somewhere in Hong Kong. A birthday party for a dog in Chicago. Some Mime gesturing a baguette in Paris. A young couple getting paid playing dogs in rich peoples homes. Some dude masturbating on a rooftop. Meanwhile an asteroid headed straight to earth.

26th of May: “Last argument and what you wished you said.”

I don’t argue a lot. But the last time was with some girl that happened to start a work project together. After some time invested and a lot of stuff created together me and the other dude in our group got ghosted by her. Without access or any data to proof what we have created together. Turns out her company used that knowledge created as a community and turning it into a product. Without as having something to grasp on or work further on. The argument was pretty one-sided as she was not responding at all. So I was writing: “I just need something to work on further. It’s only fair.”, then having the right gut instinct “Listen if you are not allowed to share because your company is in the way then please say that and allow us at least access to the file you tried to share in the beginning.”, and then after drumming up some reactions on a professional social network I tagged her and her company saying that I am happy to present the results of our communal work either as a success story or a fuck-up-story. I got the files within the next our and a demand was made to delete the mentioning of her and her company. I responded: “Haha, I am currently outside but will do so in a bit” - just to use some bullshit excuse that she gave for not responding for months. I wish I would have played a long-game and copied the ghosting for some months, so I wish I wouls have said nothing. I thanked her for the great work together and wished her all the best. I should have added professionally as well…